1st Letter: Best Friends

So apparently I'm supposed to be writing this to my "best friend." But i can't pick one. So this is to all of you - you know who you are, my Mellonhead, BFFL, and favorite Wheatie :)

You guys. You're the best thing in my life. I don't know where i'd have been the last couple of years if i didn't have you. You've kept me (somewhat) sane, you've always been there, you haven't judged me, and you've meant more than i can ever say. There's just one problem - i don't see any of you enough. That's mostly my fault, and i is sorry :(

One of my hugest insecurities is that i rely on you guys more than anyone relies on me. I don't want to be the one person in a relationship that always takes and never gives. Sometimes i feel like that's who i am. I really hope you guys know that i care so much about all of you, and i want to be there for you the way you've been for me.

Thanks guys, for everything. I love you so much.

This.

is making me happy :D I have been waiting for this for years. In 33 days, i begin my first linguistics class ever. I am about to take my first step into polyglotism. And i am in love with this book ♥

Happiness :D

My schedule is completely different now! I got all the classes I want, yay me! Comp Lit 240, Japanese 113, and Linguistics 400! (i still love college)

Anddd i'm moving on september 23rd. i. can. not. wait.

Changing it up a little

Soo...instead of posting song lyrics like i do all the time, this time i am going to grace my readers with a video of me singing(ish) the relevant song:

This is how i feel about a certain someone. And no, i won't say who :p

Letters :)

Soo...who knows if i'll get all the way through this list, but here goes.

Write a letter a day to the designated individual:

Day 1 — Your Best Friend

Day 2 — Your Crush

Day 3 — Your parents

Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)

Day 5 — Your dreams

Day 6 — A stranger

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend

Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you

Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from

Day 15 — The person you miss the most

Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country

Day 17 — Someone from your childhood

Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be

Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest

Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression

Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to

Day 23 — The last person you kissed

Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory

Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times

Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to

Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day

Day 28 — Someone that changed your life

Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to

Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

Expect the first one in the somewhat not extremely distant (relatively) future :D

fun fun

So, i was finally able to register for classes at the UW today, the lateness of which occurrence meant all the normal classes i intended to take are full. Since i wanted to take an english comp class, but the only ones available required concurrent enrollment in another random class, i am now taking African History: 1880-present. Oh, college...

all i feel

Sky black and blue
Blue turn to red
There's quiet in the streets now
But it's screaming in your head

I ain't a fool
But I've got my doubts
Say it doesn't hurt
It doesn't matter anyhow, anyhow...

Hey we're just bleeding for nothing
It's hard to breathe when you're standing on your own
We'll kill ourselves to find freedom
You'll kill yourself to find anything at all

So lock all the doors
And put your child to rest
There's quiet in the streets now
But it's screaming in your head
We're passing the time
By breaking apart
We're damned at the end
And we're damned at the start
Blame it on the roses
Blame it on the red
We're running out of time
And I'm running out of breath

Hey now, we're bleeding for nothing
It's hard to breathe when you're standing on your own
We'll kill ourselves to find freedom
You'll kill yourself to find anything

You say good-bye
Every day and night
With writing on the walls
Everybody's gonna need somebody
To take our troubles, and our worries, and our problems all away

'Cause, hey you're just bleeding for nothing
It's hard to breathe when you're standing on your own
We'll kill ourselves to find freedom
You'll kill yourself to find anything at all

Hey now you're bleeding for nothing
It's hard to breathe when you're standing on your own
We'll kill ourselves to find freedom
You'll kill yourself to find anything

Hey now, hey now, hey now
We say goodbye, every day and night
We write it on the walls
Well, everybody's gonna need somebody
To take our troubles and our worries
And our problems all away

Hey now, hey now, hey now
Right now...

~ Hey Now, by Augustana

I love you so much. Even if we're not as close as we used to be. Even if we hardly talk, and our lifestyles are polar opposites. I still don't know what I'd do without you. But please don't expect me to take sides in this. I really can't. I'm in an impossible position. And right now, i'm just disconnecting from everything.