Music :/

Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There's always some reason
To feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins
Let me be empty
Oh and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

In the arms of the angels
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angels
May you find some comfort here

So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There's vultures and theives at your back
The storm keeps on twisting
Keep on building the lies
that you make up for all that you lack
It don't make no difference
Escaping one last time
It's easier to believe
In this sweet madness
Oh this glorious sadness
That brings me to my knees

In the arms of the angels
Fly away from here
From this dark, cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You were pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angels
May you find some comfort here

~Sarah McLachlan

wow

linguistics homework is turning out to be a bit more difficult than i'd anticipated. not that that's a bad thing XD now i shall leave my narcissistic blog-land to try to figure out whether clear l or dark l is the best underlying form of the phoneme...

Two Songs

Pretty much summing up my mental state right now. Anxiety's a bitch. Meh.

Shallow

I have been coming to a realization. A rather unsettling realization. I am probably the most selfish person i know. I don't know how i got this way. I don't want to be this way, but i can't honestly say i particularly want to change. I'm comfortable the way i am. But at the same time, i despise myself. All i know is something needs to change.

Health Food

I eat very healthy in college. Tonight's dinner: tomato soup, doritos, and diet coke. Variation on a theme, really. Amazingly, i've already lost 5 pounds =)

snap crackle pop

snap crackle pop
streaks beneath the surface
see you’ve got this image and
what you don’t know won’t hurt you
pop crackle snap
the limitless possibilities
it's art, really
it’s an intricate ballet
pop
the joints are straining
crackle
more and more each day
snap
time’s getting short
pop pop crackle snap pop
crazy can’t be so controlled
oh, but there you’re wrong
art is overrated
crackle pop snap
oh look, you broke it
like that little glass dancer doll
it was pretty wasn’t it
pop snap crackle
but some things you’ll never find
no matter how many times you break it
you’re just making a mess
pop snap pop
as many times as you break it
you won’t see -
the dance is never over
snap crackle pop