Nothing worth having is easy.

Meh, just some bits from a couple of my favorite songs on a certain theme. Because i have nothing original to say, hehe.

Laughing like it works
Breathing like it don't hurt
Knock you off your feet
Even if you need me
Tear you apart
I hate how i need you

~from Skin and Bones by Mariana's Trench

And even the nights they could get better
And even the days ain't all that bad
And after a week of fighting
As more and more it seems the right thing
Do you believe in something beautiful?
Then get up and be it.

All the bourgeois social angels
Telling you you've got to change
Don't have any idea
They'll never see so clear
So don't forget what it really means
To hunger strike when you don't really need to
Some are dying for a cause
But that don't make it yours
And even the nights they could get better...

~from Me and Mia, by Ted Leo & the Pharmacists

I feel like posting some From First to Last too, but meh, they get graphic, so i shall refrain :p

Scared

That i'm letting things go farther than they ever have before. That i'm doing things that used to terrify me to think about. That all i want now is to do it again. Because i've never felt so calm and peaceful in my life as i did at that moment.

Castle Down

I was stupid today. Like i've been before. For some reason guys always get to me through the insecure, you have to like me because if you don't you'll crush my self-esteem and cause me insane mental issues route. It's happened before, now it's happening again. And i'm so gullible. I don't realize until it's too late that every word they're saying is probably a lie. I sometimes wish that i'd started dating at a younger age, just so i would have had more of a chance to learn to say no. I don't know how to say no to a guy who acts nice, and its screwing me over.

So anyway, this song came to mind while i was trying to get away from this guy today, and i thought i'd post it just because that's what i do ;) Without further ado, Castle Down, by Emilie Autumn.

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You can see that I swim
Through the sea of painful
You have watched as I pulled
Myself from the floor

And you were there when I
Built my tower like pebbles in the rain
Trying to balance all that I had left
With what I didn't have any more

And would you tear my castle down
Stone by stone
And let the wind run through my windows
'Til there is nothing left but a battered rose

And would you tear my castle down
Stone by stone
And let the wind run through my windows
'Til there is nothing left but a battered rose

You seem so devoted
Your love is unconditional
You were self-promoted
I never asked you

You were my everything
My apparitional faith
Where are you when I am
Screaming to my god what am I coming to

And would you tear my castle down
Stone by stone
And let the wind run through my windows
'Til there is nothing left but a battered rose

And would you tear my castle down
Stone by stone
And let the wind run through my windows
'Til there is nothing left but a battered rose

If I had another place to go
Would you break me, is it that you know
I have no choice but to rebuild again
I'm tied so hard I can't remember when
I last walked free upon these feet of mine

But I'll draw the line
There will come a time
When I am stronger
Your words won't hurt any longer

And would you tear my castle down
Stone by stone
And let the wind run through my windows
'Til there is nothing left but a battered rose

And would you tear my castle down
Stone by stone
And let the wind run through my windows
'Til there is nothing left but a battered rose

And would you tear my castle down
Stone by stone
And let the wind run through my windows
'Til there is nothing left but a battered rose

And would you tear my castle down
Stone by stone
And let the wind run through my windows
'Til there is nothing left
'Til there is nothing, nothing left
'Til there is nothing left

Would you tear my castle down
Would you tear my castle down
Would you tear my castle down