So. Some shit happened. Well, not happened, but i just found out about it a few weeks ago. It's changed my perspective on things a lot. Anyways, the main point is i'm quitting. Maybe. Hopefully. Sort of. I don't know, these things never last long for me, but i really need this time to be different. I can't keep screwing up anymore.
Okay, lyrics time ;)
From the scrapes and bruises
To the familiar abuses
I'll kick and scream but
It never changes anything
I could spill my guts out
Wearing my best little girl pout
I almost missed it
But nobody said that this was gonna be easy
This is not the man I hoped to be
And I'm just trying to stop the bleeding
I don't know how to word it
I just started to deserve it
And all my faces are alibis
And me, I'm half the man i wanted to be
Most times it all comes out wrong
I don't know the words but I'll hum along
There's nothing familiar here anymore
To anyone or anything left to feel alive
And I still taste that sickness
And it makes me crazy without it at best
But I'm in the same place i used to be
But I'm trying harder not to be
This is not the man I hoped to be
And I'm just trying to stop the bleeding
I don't know how to word it
I just started to deserve it
And all my faces are alibis
And me, I'm half the man I wanted to be
So what am I? What am I? What am I?
And all my faces are alibis
This is not the man I hoped to be
And I'm just trying to stop the bleeding
I don't know how the words go
I just started not to say no
Don't want it, don't get it
I know you won't regret it
Don't surface, don't surface
And I feel so damn worthless
Another day is gone and all my faces are alibis
All my faces are alibis
I'm half the man I wanted to be
~ Mariana's Trench, Alibis
